Even though I have no idea if/when I'll be able to go get her, I know in my heart that this little girl (Paty) IS meant to be my daughter.
The question is: will I ever be able to bring her home and give her the life full of love that she deserves?
And the scary thought is:
Will I be too late?
Will she languish so long in her prison that her legs bend in and cross over? Will she ever know how much she is loved and cherished? Will she continue to be left in her crib, physically cared for but little to no stimulation, socialization, emotion or love?
How can I stand it?
How can I know that MY baby is suffering and know that there is NOTHING tangible that I can do right now?
The worst question I can ask myself is: what if I never get to bring her home? To be selfish, what will I do if I never get the chance to spend my days with her?
I've held her, I know her laugh, her smell, her beauty and I have to live with the fact that I don't know if I will ever be able to bring my daughter home.
I'm sure many of you know this feeling.
How do you stand it?
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2 Awesome Readers Said...:
I don't know how I've missed the fact that you've been posting. You really break my heart, your story. You are such a saint... Which reminds me, I NEED your address.
I remembered the reason I called you the other day - I'm thinking of joining bookmooch or PaperBackSwap, and don't know which one to do, I don't know how much you've been reading lately
I am waiting for a free book in the mail to review that hasn't been released yet (yay) from goodreads. I'm so excited!
Your heart is so tender towards orphans. Thank you.
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